EazyT

About Me

father, raver, ex grunger, general lover of life

Blogs I follow:

1. 2 depressions & lsd

   I love listening to kid cudi, always gets me thinking! I’m at work writing this but I got to get it on here or i’ll forget! I don’t think a song has ever struck me quite like kid cudis’ “soundtrack 2 my life” when he says “I’ve got some issues that no body can see” I hear that and just go insane cause I always have things going through my head! I talk a lot (less now) but I think I only get like…20% of things that are on my mind out. If I share something with you especially something that im hesitant about, plz realize that im prolly thinking about that a lot! I think I keep most things to myself cause my mind moves to fast, so dont take it personal if you feel like your left out. Im not afraid to share just most of the time I dont think to share it, I think about it a little bit, and move on. Ive been through two kinds of depressions, one where I was extremely sad to the point where I thought very seriously of how best to end my life and one that I dont know if its so much a depression, but I have felt like…fuck life, fuck everything, fuck family, fuck friends, fuck things that I like, fuck everyone and mines feelings. I domt give a fuck anymore! It sounds really terrible typing that but…i felt like that just today and my life right now is pretty good! I get that feeling and then I see my son and hes learning words so clear and quick, he makes me laugh, or I see my wife and how much she really wants to be with me and for us to be happy, hanging out with friends always makes me appreciate life, good music, certain drugs, so many things help me appreciate life and im glad I have them all cause if I didnt…id be dead. We all have thoughts like this I think what makes us stable…is having things that get your mind off of those thoughts. And lastly I had a dream sunday night that I took lsd (which I have only done in small doses with xtc) and it was an awesome dream! I never remember my dreams, and for me to have this great ass dream, wake up at 218 am and remember it…that says a lot to me. Im not saying I need to do lsd now but…im definatly considering it again. One last thing I wanna put on here is thanks for reading this, if you did then I know you care about me. My family except for my wife doesnt even know I have a tumblr! I love tumblr cause I can stop and share these things on my mind that would never be shared without something like this cause my mind just thinks about too much stuff to fast. :)